Have you ever been in a situation where you are supposed to have a fully, doubtless trust in certain someone but somehow – somewhere deep inside you, you do have some doubts? You just feel like that “someone” hides something from you or not telling you the whole truth/story?
You try to ignore, forcing to keep move forward with your eyes closed and ears covered with your both hand, telling yourself that everything is fine.
Because what you believe is that; as long as you don’t say it out loud, those doubts isn’t there. It’s like lying to yourself, more or else. Or perhaps you just want to believe what you want to believe even when you doubted that for whatever reason that certain person always tells you the truth.
Somehow there will always be doubts in some conversation or situation. And since all you do is ignoring them (maybe because you’re too tired ti argue), it unconsciously became your habit (bad habit indeed). And when you are in this point, trust me … there is no one else to blame but yourself. No one ever forced you to swallow those doubts inside you.
But maybe you were wrong; maybe that certain someone did tells you nothing but the truth and in my case maybe I’m just being paranoid about being lied to. But again … you never know.
And there is no way you can tell and share this kind of situation to your closest friend/ best friend because they’re just going to give you a confirmation about the truth, something you don’t want to face, the truth you just can’t handle (may be not now, because you’re enjoying the ride of a beautiful lies)
And you feels like a ticking bomb that ready to blow out at any time. But until then …..
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