I don’t know what it is, bringing these doubts and destruction. But what am I? Selfish or selfless?
I believe that the reason I tend to care for others is because I don’t wish for them to hate me (basically pleasing them), and that I want to see them happy (and not for their own good)—is that selfishness?
And yet, through that, I am hardly putting myself and what I want (do I even actually want something definite?) before them; I never consider the consequences my giving in to them does to me. And even if that consequence is of pain and misunderstanding, I always end up going back and forgiving the person I have supposedly put ahead of me, and continuously putting them ahead of me, again and again. Is that selflessness?
(Or is this just stupidity on my behalf?)
Or is it all three? Selfish, selfless, and stupid. Three S’s.
Of course, I don’t have to be just one orientation. Or do I?
Does it even matter?
…
I believe that the reason I tend to care for others is because I don’t wish for them to hate me (basically pleasing them), and that I want to see them happy (and not for their own good)—is that selfishness?
And yet, through that, I am hardly putting myself and what I want (do I even actually want something definite?) before them; I never consider the consequences my giving in to them does to me. And even if that consequence is of pain and misunderstanding, I always end up going back and forgiving the person I have supposedly put ahead of me, and continuously putting them ahead of me, again and again. Is that selflessness?
(Or is this just stupidity on my behalf?)
Or is it all three? Selfish, selfless, and stupid. Three S’s.
Of course, I don’t have to be just one orientation. Or do I?
Does it even matter?
…
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